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NOTES: General notes first. I noticed recently that I seem to have switched from having the narrator speak to his or her target in third person to second. I kind of like it better this way though; it makes it harder to guess. Also, I really am trying to stop ending these things with sappy one-liners. I really am! I swear!
Anime series, somewhere towards the end of canon. I went easy on the relationship in this one, because I really do think that there's no way it could even really be considered canon. I mean yeah, you could slash them if you wanted, but the het relationship is really very cute too and so much more pronounced. Anyway, there're your hints. Go to work!
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She keeps trying to tell me that you were in love with me, but I know she's just saying that to try and make me feel better.
It's not fair, you know. You died before we resolved this... thing, between us. Why did you have to go and do that? Maybe you didn't love me, but you had no right to abandon her like that.
She's so innocent. You can tell from the way she talks and the way she looks at you that she believes that everyone is a fundamentally good person. I admire that about her.
She told me that that was why you loved her. Because of what you saw of me, in her. She said that you often talked of the innocence with which I viewed the world, and that you loved that innocence about me.
You had that innocence taken from you when you were very young. I pity you for that. I could feel you, when you were around me, straining to recapture that. You wanted more than anything to believe in people's goodness, but you just couldn't seem to.
Did you finally regain it, before you died? For your sake, I hope so.
We miss you. All of us. Even though you were one of Them, we still believe in your goodness.
Is that it? You couldn't believe in the goodness of the world because you thought you lost your own inherent innocence? You were wrong, then. You never lost that, not completely. It got buried beneath layers of hatred and habit. It lay deep and forgotten, but not lost.
You had such a hard time believing in my innocence. I don't blame you. I am not innocent. I never will be. But I have hope. Hope for tomorrow is what is really most important. That maybe those who today are not innocent will get a chance to become that sometime in their futures. That's why life is so important; as long as you are alive, you still have the opportunity to make life better.
You have lost that opportunity. But did you reclaim that innocence there, right at the end? I thought you might have.
Your soul must be in heaven now. For the innocence was there all along, even if you didn't see it.